Another Step In

Understanding the Bible, is difficult for me. I am not a literary person, but that cannot be a n excuse. I remember a lyric from a christian rapper, that basically said…that at first he could not understand the Bible, however, through God’s awesomeness he began to understand it. I see this and I yearn to have this kind of knowledge…..this skill….this gift…..to able to understand God’s Word without being confused. Anyone would like that. right? Seeing all these Prophets for God opening their mouths and God’s Word just fills the air…..its amazing…..and if you read the study Bibles it says most of them started when they were teenagers….I’m a teenager. Its amazing and sometimes weird how God works. But God does know what is best.

My preacher once preached about the prophet Samuel. When God first called him to prophecies…..he was a young boy…..and he did not know God. It was weird to me, because I thought God only called those who were qualified to do so…..but here God called on a young boy, who did not have a strong relationship with God, but in God eyes…young Samuel was ready to serve Him…and you can tell……Samuel became a great follower of God. God will call you even if you’re not ready or far away from God……and I guess it includes teenagers as well. I guess we are never too young to do God’s work after all……all these excuses to not do God’s work, because I am too scared…..heck today I said I was going to fast today, but in the end I ate dinner because “I was out of it”….I am sinner at heart….and that bothers me. I want to do God’s work….I really want too….hmmmm…I’m going to FROG (FullyRelyOnGod) this right now….why should I worry about this….God has the plans, not me…..Thank You God….whew…another miniature step taken in my life.

Step One

I would have never thought I would make a blog. However, here I am…making one. I guess I couldn’t keep my thoughts within me. All these thoughts that I want to tell somebody, but can’t man-up enough to tell anyone. I am a quiet boy, who wants to be open. Kinda cheesy hahahaha……but I really need something to relieve my heart from all this weight. I have accepted Christ into my heart every since Jan 23rd, 2012….so I guess I’m relatively “new” as a Christian..however, God has done many things in my life that has made me stronger in my belief. Right now I’m going through “girl troubles”….I like this girl, who liked me back……I asked her out on Valentine’s Day….she said yes……Few days later, she said that she was not ready for a relationship yet and she wants to have a strong relationship with God first before she goes out with someone…..Praise God that she wants to accept God in her heart!!, but my heart is broken…..what does this mean? However, God has a purpose……and I will fully rely on God and follow the path he wants me to follow….but it hurts. Fast-fowarding to today….I still like her…..but what can I do….my faith has become stronger through this….but I’m still “suffering”…..I guess I’m being selfish right now…..but I need help…I guess I will ask for a prayer request…..to give me rest and strength…However, God also did many miracles in my life….haha…..in August 19th I will begin as a freshman in The Ohio State University….thank you God, my father will be able to fly to Korea for only $800 to receive surgery….thank you God, I received straight A’s for the first time in my life….and I prayed for that too…..thank you God, My mother defeated Breast Cancer for the 3rd and final time…..thank you God. I could go on…..but I will end my first step here…thank you God.